what makes people so different from...other people?
the world is so big. and you get sooo caught up in your own life that, you really forget that at times. there are soooo many people in this world, living out their lives, learning things, experiencing things i'll probably never experience, seeing things i'll probably never see.
there are so many things i want to do and see and experience. and it feels like i'm trapped...i have all these huge dreams...and yet i'm stuck in this town...working in crappy jobs, that only allow enough money to pay the bills. i want to go to school or move away or something. i don't know what yet.
i don't want to be broken down like everyone else. i don't want to be jumping out of my shoes, getting so excited because i got a job at another grocery store. i don't have the same goals as everyone else. and i'm just afraid thats all they'll ever be.
goals, dreams, thoughts, ideas. nothing actually coming of those things.
how do so many people become successful fashion designers, writers, musicians, directors, actors, athletes? and so many people end up regular people? the people who work in restuarants, bookstores, grocery stores, and gas stations?
doesn't this scare anyone else? i'm sitting here crying because i'm so afraid this is all i'll ever be. doesn't anyone else have these thoughts?!
dani
loves
music [if it was a religion, i'd already be a member]. chuck palahniuk and haruki murakami books. my cat gwen. my dell dj. my family. my friends. trent reznor & NIN. gwen stefani.
hates
people who focus way too much time on being thin. people who aren't obsessive about music. homophobes. close-minded people.