out of nowhere, i didn't even see this one coming.
8:03 p.m. & April 30, 2005

well before this little incident, i had absolutely no fodder to write about.

so its between 730-ish. i'm drawing up a bath, because i want to relax. i pause in the bathroom, hearing my cellphone, i go and check it, thinking its either josh or misti. its robin. robin who i worked with at safeway. the robin who didn't give 2 shits when i i was laid off in freakin JANUARY. the bitch hasn't called me since then. and even when i considered her an "ok" person, she still only called me wanting something, never wanting to hang out, wanting to cry on my shouler or ask me some stupid fucking question.

so she calls tonight, once again, the last time i've talked to her was some time in late december. hmmm what month is it people. yeah its almost fucking may. come on, you really thought i was going to answer the phone and be nice to you? bitch you thought wrong.

the phone call lasted no more then 2 minutes IF THAT. i responded with short curt answers, probably dripping with a nice mixture of disdain and rudeness. how the fuck am i supposed to respond robin? be all fucking chummy to you? accept your invitation to coffee? like we were so fucking close to begin with? come off it already.

and the thing was she sounded upset, talking about something something something her sister, so she thought she'd call me to invite me to coffee.

seriously, and i'm not supposed to be bitter? even if i was buddhist, with all the patience in the world, i would have said no. because i never considered her a true friend, and the only reason why i never called those people after i was laid off was because i never really considered them friends to begin with. even if i did get hurt that they never called me.

seriously....was i supposed to say yes? was i supposed to be ecstatic that i was lucky enough to recieve her phone call? was i supposed to ask her how her life was and how everything else was? and actually care? i'm so glad that i'm more honest with the people i don't like anymore. its liberating, to be honest with someone you truly don't care about.

i figure, if you truly don't care about them and have aboslutely no need to have them in your life, whats the fucking big deal if your rude to them? especially if they have it coming. jesus.

dani

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