i guess this is what happiness feels like
9:32 p.m. & May 14, 2005

listening to: why does my heart feel so bad by moby

so many emotions, so many situations, so many...things that happen to you in a day, so many stupid funny moments, other moments of sadness mixed with concern, other moments leave you with a smile for the rest of the day <---those are the moments i hold onto and revisit through out the day.

i hate being vage. i really do. i'm in this transition stage in my life right now, and i'm sorry i can't really share it with everyone who reads this. gina and michely know what is going on with me, but for people who read on a regular basis [well i hope there are people out there like that], i'm sorry for not sharing...

i really feel like i'm truly changing and evolving right now. and it is a great feeling, i wish i could fully express it without any fear. but with any change, comes a bit of sadness and fear. but i know the end result will be a good one.

i just want to be a happy person, and i'm finally realizing, that in order to be that happy person, who loves life, no matter what little stumbling blocks come in my way, i need to make changes now. and, albeit painful, they need to be made.

gina and michely, if your reading this, thank you for you support, for your emails and for all the other things you've given. its like i have friends all over the states, but even there is distance, i know that you guys are there...

its so nice to get over that whole depressive stage in my life and realize that i can be happy, and the people in my life, near and far, do care, they do want to support me and be there for me and all those wonderful things...

i wish everyone could experience the changes i'm going through right now. its so liberating and wonderful...

dani

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