i've found the remedy for everything sad.
8:45 p.m. & May 22, 2005

listening to: sunspots-nine inch nails

what a crazy fun depressing sad good day.

trust me, you can feel all those things in one day. its like hey, welcome to the rollercoaster that is danielle. strange things await you, but i'm sure you'll enjoy most of them, and hey, at least you'll have something to write about in that lame little journal of yours...

lol....

what parts of my day can i write about? since i'm back to square one, censoring myself, afraid of being found out...god its happened before, i'm sure it can happen again...

i bought garden state on dvd. that is one of the good parts of the day. i made kahlua and cream [with whip cream on top] sat down and had my yummy drink and watched garden state, got a buzz and just enjoyed the movie. it felt nice after i had that drink, it kinda made me feel numb and just...far away from the problems i have in my life right now...

i can see how some people go overboard with alcohol. for me its just because it tastes so goddamn yummy, and yeah the buzz is nice. but mostly for the taste.

garden state is just....like this fluffy soft sweater for me. its just...all the things that i love about life in general...rolled up into one movie. going through life, having problems, having to deal with them head on, falling in love, going on adventures with friends, dealing with parents, all if it is just life...

i love it when sam say's "your in it right now, you totally are." i'm totally "in" it too. i'm so in it right now....regarding 2 different things....jesus.

the other really good part of my day...just realizing i was totally "in" it and also realizing, i can get myself out of it. i just put on my jeans, and took a walk, listened to the postal service, came home, feeling completely fine. its so hard to explain. i just felt, all better. like someone gave me a magical pill and it relieved all the tension, fear, sadness and just general feeling blue.

now i know what to do when i'm feeling down...listen to the postal service and go out for a walk...

plus it was just so beautiful out, and that helped too. it was a nice breezy, sunny sunday evening and it was just pure perfection....

if only everyone knew that a walk and the postal service were the remedy to cure all things sad and blue,
dani

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