listening to: what else? nine inch nails...
as you could probably already discern...[hopefully i'm using that word right, i love using big intelligent words but constantly worry if i'm using them right] i'm a huge NIN fan.
it sucks when your idol, your musical equivalant to god only puts out albums every 5 years. i love trent, think he's the greatest fucking musical genius evar. seriously i do. i recently noticed that when i wasn't totally obsessed with NIN i would find myself temporarily replacing them with other musicians i'd be obsessed with for about a week....
its hard to replace trent reznor. the fact that he finally has an album out, i'm just happy. plain motherfucking happy. this album came out in a time of my life that just....will definitely make me think of myself right now, later on down the road when i listen to this album.
there's alot of independence that i've noticed in myself, that i don't think i've ever felt...at all in my life. its great to feel like you can do whatever the fuck you want. and yeah you have your lonely moments and sad moments, but you work through them and get by.
it was so weird...last night i got all sad out of nowhere, and cried for like...less then 2 minutes and after that i was fine. the old me, the one who hated so much of her life and wanted to change so badly would have taken those 2 minutes and made them last much longer then that. and the fact that i noticed that, the fact that i was perfectly ok after i let all that sadness out, felt great.
i just finally realized, i'm done being a depressed person. i'm finally done with it. i'm out of that phase and it feels great. seriously to find something in my life right now that i'm going to get all mopey about just feels stupid and useless. why the fuck would i want to ruin all this goodness i'm feeling?
its also great when your best friend and your mom see how much you've changed and are very happy for you and love you that much more for it. :)
i'm so fucking ready for this weekend!!!! getting out of town and spending 3 days with my family, getting to see my mom and spend quality time with her and i'm gonna hang out with my sister which will be great...god knows how much shit we go through that just...well i wish it would just end...
i might update when i'm at my mom's house. i might get bored enough...lol.
oh yeah, if you didn't read the last entry, lost fucking rules. and if you don't watch that show, spend the summer catching up on it ok? or we might not stay friends....lol....
dani
loves
music [if it was a religion, i'd already be a member]. chuck palahniuk and haruki murakami books. my cat gwen. my dell dj. my family. my friends. trent reznor & NIN. gwen stefani.
hates
people who focus way too much time on being thin. people who aren't obsessive about music. homophobes. close-minded people.